Today is a BIG day in our house. Our family is stepping out, into an unknown area, but one we know beyond a shadow of a doubt we are meant to do.
I am nervous, a bit scared, apprehensive and maybe even overwhelmed.
We are hosting our very first meeting for our new small group in our home.
YIKES!! Yes, this introvert who is extremely private and loves to be a homebody and struggles immensely with hospitality perfectionism, is saying YES to something that will likely lead me to grab hold of HIM even more.
Isn’t that the place God does the biggest work in us?
For years I have been involved in a small group of women and it has been wonderful. Both my husband and I felt it was time to share life together as a family/couple in a fellowship group, yet our search for a new church was exhausting us and breaking us down. Incredible renewal was ignited when we found our new church home and we are able to step out in this calling.
We are meant to be in community with other believers, and not just on Sunday. It was clearly presented to me recently one morning while I read through my daily devotional on YouVersion written by Rick Warren:
“You are called to belong, not just believe. We are created for community, fashioned for fellowship, and formed for a family, none of us can fulfill God’s purposes by ourselves. The Bible knows nothing of solitary saints or spiritual hermits.” – Rick Warren
It was confirmation to me that we were headed down the right road. However, I struggle with some significant things that make stepping out to host a group in my home a challenge.
Hospitality for the Introverted Perfectionist is Scary
This is a true step of faith for me and I will have to pray hourly for HIS strength to carry me through. You see, I struggle with wanting my home to be perfect, welcoming, inviting, spotless and everything done perfectly. I have come to realize – and it has taken me many years to truly grasp this – if I wait for that to happen, I will never be ready. I will never be able to serve God with the strengths He has given me right now.
Serving in New Ways
Our family had gotten in a rut in finding ways to serve. We have been blessed to monetarily contribute to causes we find called to help (one of those is the FIVE girls this blog supports in India through Compassion with your purchases using this Amazon affiliate link!) and with physical goods to those who are in need – but we’ve been able to make the excuse that we don’t have time to serve in the ways that so many places need. People have a hard time giving up their time to serve, and we have been guilty of this excuse.
So our group will find relevant and real needs in our community to step out and serve. I am excited to see what presents itself. We are in the process of reading Barefoot Church by Brandon Hatmaker.
It’s All About Relationships
Getting to know new people is scary. Opening up in a real and honest way is hard – but I know I am called to be vulnerable, honest, genuine and authentic as we gather a group of believers together to search for relationship beyond our church doors on Sunday.
As an introvert I want to just keep to myself, be a homebody and tithe and serve in ways that I think are “good enough.” Yes, I did just say that – I was not looking for excellence in this area, going beyond what was good enough. From the quote above, this stuck out to me, kind of like a slap in the face: “none of us can fulfill God’s purposes by ourselves”.
So I am jumping in – and yes, I am busy. I don’t have time. I will be anxious that someone will think my house is not clean enough. I’ll be afraid to run out of food or surprise someone with something I say that may embarrass me. However, I am being called to step out and do more. So I will obey and be obedient and see what God can do when I stop making excuses.
Are you involved in a small group with your church? Or do you feel called to step out and join one?
This video really touched my heart and encouraged me in this journey. So many are lonely – even myself. This will be a great journey!
(Click through to the blog to view the video.)