Making Space For a New Season


Making Space For a New Season

My spirit has been unsettled for a few months.

It’s all good, but when God is calling us into a new season, one with change and the unknown…it is often ourselves that fight against that change.

We want the comfortable, the known, and the guaranteed. We want what we can control (or at least perceive to control) and what we can logically plan out.

I share many things here on this blog for moms that hopefully help you get through your day a little easier; encouragement in the form of blog posts or short eBooks that will give your spirit a life, troubleshooting products (like the Weekly Household Planner or the Summer Survival Calendar), and often I share personal parts of my own story. You see, that is where being vulnerable and authentic has the power to truly make a difference for someone else and for His Kingdom.

My eyes are watery as I type my words onto the screen. I am emotional, I am scared, I am nervous, and I need my GOD now more than ever. When I do not know what the future holds, this is where He can act boldly.

Before you think that I have some devastating news, please be assured our family is well. There is no bad news coming – rather, just the opposite.

You see, after dragging our feet for several years, waiting on the perfect timing to proceed into the process of fostering children in need, we are getting ready to jump back in. But here is the kicker – it makes no logical sense at all. I have a busy schedule managing two home businesses, my husband travels four days a week, we are involved in hosting a small group in our home, and we’re managing a home of three other kids still at home. We are busy! I am tired and there is no space for more. Yet, I have heard clearly that I am to cut out some things in my life and create the space for God to move in our life and use us as He sees fit.  

“It’s possible that the perfect season of life you are waiting on before fostering or adopting will never come. When will the crazy busy of life really slow down enough for you to then make it crazy and busy all over again by fostering or adopting? Have you considered that perhaps the parameters you have set to define when you’re ‘ready’ may be too narrow? What if they leave no space for you to actually ever feel ‘ready’? What if you’re more ready now than you realize?” – Jason Johnson

What if I leave NO space for me to actually ever feel “ready”? – OUCH!

As I sat down to share this with you all, this came across my Facebook feed. It was the perfect timing!

Are you willing?

So, I am in the process of cleaning some things off my plate so I can make some room to do God’s work…to be “willing” to be used.

I have been reading an incredible blog written by Jason Johnson about the churches role in foster and adoption care. This post especially kicked me in the gut. We often times look at things only from our perspective, but when you look at it from the other direction…wow.

For those who are newer here, you may not know our story. We became licensed foster parents about six years ago and were on a path to adopt through the system. We were incredibly blessed to have a little boy join our family. It wasn’t easy, it wasn’t perfect, and it certainly was not my plan at all…however, we did it. I know it was what we were supposed to do. To be honest, on those days I am tired and can hardly think straight, I wonder why I was chosen. Why me?  

I am almost 49 – on the side of parenting where I should be enjoying those later years with more freedom and time to do what I want to do. However, that is not the plan and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is what my husband and I are being called to do. Put aside my selfish desires and serve Him, the one who designed me to serve, who gave me gifts and talents just for this time.

So, as I enter this new season, I would love for you to think of my family and say a prayer. I will share our process and perhaps it might spark a desire in you to see what you can do – YES, YOU! I have written before about foster care and adoption, that not everyone is meant to take a child into their home, but we are all called to serve in this process.

Jason Johnson wrote a powerful blog post on how you can support another family who has taken in a child. It’s all about community and coming together.

What Foster Care and Adoption Is About

Be prepared – I will be challenging you in this area while I venture on this journey! You have something to give and I would ask God to show you what that is.  🙂

Reflecting on God Weaving My Story



I have been at a loss about what to post today – for several days my mind was blank except for one topic.  

Foster care and adoption

I’ve shared my heart and my story a bit here on the blog in hopes of opening up the eyes of everyone – to find that little spot where you can make a difference in someone’s life.  I have said it before and I will continue to say it….. not everyone is meant to adopt or even do foster care, but there is always somewhere you can lend a hand – there is a need to fill.

As for everyone, this time of year is busy.  I wanted to slow down this season and focus more on the important…. I am trying, but it is still a work in progress.  I’ve been a bit under the weather and keeping up with regular tasks in addition to the extra things that come with the holidays has taken it’s toll.  I have been hearing a whisper in my ear to remember this season and what happened to us four years ago.

You see, four years ago during this time we were introduced to a precious little boy looking for a forever home.  My life was thrown a curve ball and it was, as I reflect, one of the most treasured times that I can remember – with it being Christmas.  


As I look over some photos of when Jacob first arrived in our home, tears form and I began to not only remember but FEEL that time, deeply.   (I managed to dig up a few, sorry they are a bit blurry).  Sometimes we really need to take the time to let our hearts open back up and feel.  I can be really good at stuffing things, thus not allowing good or bad to flow out or in.  It is something God is working with me on.

I remember getting to know this 12 month old little boy, playing with him on the floor, adjusting to his behaviors which were a little different than what I was used to, listening to Christmas music in the background and eventually helping him transition into our home full time.  I would never in a million years imagined I would become the mom of a little 12 month old.  I had no idea what God still needed to develop in my life, and still don’t.

I shared the complete story in a blog post and you can read that if you missed it before.  God weaving an amazing story that I often take for granted and unfortunately forget.

As a mom who has older kids, this time of year can honestly get a bit more tedious than joyous.  I hate to admit that, but I am.  The chore of decorating for some reason this year has become overwhelming….. I am thankful for a husband who is willing to push ahead when I am worn out.

So I truly believe that God is whispering into my ear to slow down, focus on what it was like four years ago.   The wonderment of a new person entering our life, the incredible grace of our God to bless me with this little boy who challenges me everyday to be more of who God wants me to be.  

I need to reflect…. to slow down…. to remember.  God is trying to weave my story even more with His influence and amazing grace, if I just listen and respond.

Is God trying to whisper in your ear – are you ready to listen?  Or are you like me and being a bit stubborn?  

How can you take some time to allow His voice to be heard in all the busy and overwhelm?

The Real Story


I am pleased to share with you my daughter’s perspective on our family journey of fostering to adopt.  I did not edit anything she wrote and did not bribe her either.  This is from her heart and I hope it may help another mom who might be struggling with what direction to go.

I was 16 when I first heard that my mom and stepdad were considering being foster parents. It was the last thing that I expected to hear during a dinner conversation while we were on vacation in Hawaii. They asked all of our opinions about it and I was very up front about my opposition.

A Full House Already

I initially felt extremely unimportant. Already our family consisted of 3 kids including myself, why did we need to add another? At the time, this seemed like just an idea and not something that I honestly thought would actually happen since I was so against it. I thought that my mom and stepdad would value my opinion about adding another person to the family. I was incorrect. [Read more…]

Its a Family Affair


This week I’ve been sharing information and my heart for serving children in foster care.  We’ve talked about the incredible need and also the options to be a part of the solution – for everyone.  Today I wanted to touch on what it may mean for your family, most specifically if you have other children already in the home.

After Monday’s post, I received a note from a mom who was concerned with making a choice to foster and what the impact would be on her other children.  I decided that if she had this concern, it was likely a concern for others as well and I wanted to share my thoughts on our journey as well as things to consider.

If you’ve read our story of fostering to adopt, you are already familiar with the struggles we had with our oldest and her willingness to share in the desire to foster or adopt.  I thought I would share a bit more, tackle some concerns other moms may be having and also let my daughter, now 20 and away at college give her perspective now that she is older and our family dynamic is different.  I will be honored to share her post tomorrow, so come back for a special Friday post! [Read more…]

Answer the Call to SERVE


So, maybe you can’t take a child into your home for a number of reasons – I get that.  For many the logistics are not right and that is OKAY!  As I shared yesterday, there are ways to serve that include more than just having a child in your home and I will cover many today.  If I’ve left one off, please feel free to add it in the comments.

I’ve also already received some questions which has prompted me to write a third post in this series.  I will share about how to address the impact on your family, especially if you have other children in your home when you are considering adoption in general, but especially with fostering.  Look for that on Thursday.

Please remember, I am not an expert in this area – the foster care system, but having journeyed through it there are some things I’ve seen, discovered and want to pass along – so if what I share differs in your state, my apologies.  I am going from what I know from Washington State Foster Care.


Within the term ‘fostering’ comes many different types.  This is where confusion may overwhelm and people get a bit confused.  Unless you know someone else or have done some research on the subject, it can shut you down because of not understanding the options.

Emergency Care

This type of fostering involves caring for children who need somewhere safe to stay immediately, usually for a few nights. This can often happen at very short notice.  Most often this is right when a child is removed from their home by CPS.

Respite Care

Respite involves children who already are placed with a foster family, but have  short stays with another foster family to give their current family/main caregivers a break. This usually involves looking after a child or young person for a weekend, one week or two weeks.  This is what we just did for the first time when we cared for a 9 month old so his foster placement could attend a family even tout of state.  Most states will not allow foster children to go out of state unless prior permission is obtained from the birth parent or court.

Short Term Care

Short term foster carers provide a temporary place to stay until the child can return home to their own family, move into a longer term fostering placement, or an adoptive family is found. This can last for a few weeks or months, sometimes longer.  This is a transitional time where the state is trying to come up with a plan and evaluate the situation with the allegations of neglect and the level of intervention that may need to be done with the birth parents.

Long Term Care

Sometimes a family decides to long-term foster a child instead of adopting because it may be anticipated that a high level of support for many years may be needed for the child and this is one way to guarantee access to it.  Also, some children may not be available for adoption, but unfortunately do not have family to return to, giving the only option to remain in permanent foster care until the age of 18.

Foster to Adopt

This is where you go into the foster care system specifically with the goal of coming out on the other side with an adoption.  This is where our heart was led when we first entered into the journey.  We were not interested in short care or long care, but rather only considered taking children into our home who had a high likelihood of NOT being returned to their birth parents.  Let me say, you can never guarantee anything and even with a foster to adopt placement, somewhere along the journey the child could be returned to the birth parents, or some other  bureaucratic procedure may removed the child from your home, this is what happened in our very first placement.

What about the person who desires to make a difference, but does not have a room in their home, or who’s heart is not meant to care for other children in this manner?  Don’t worry, there are other jobs that need filled too!

Other Needs for the willing


In our state we have people who are licensed and trained to be transporters for children.  This means you pick up and drop off children for different type of appointments, visits with birth parents, etc.  Obviously you are required to have a car and insurance as well as some other training.  This could be the perfect type of fit for someone who enjoys interacting with children and has some hours during the week to use to pour into a child.  My personal experience with the transporters we encountered was beyond wonderful.  Caring and nurturing people who genuinely loved these kids – it was such a nice feeling.

When you are fostering and your placement has scheduled visits with the birth parents, generally your child is picked up from your home and then dropped back off by a transporter.  You are not obligated to add this task into your schedule, which is nice.

Visit Supervisors

During a child’s visit with their birth parent there has to be a visit supervisor, someone who is present the entire time with the parent and child, observing and taking notes to compile a report of that visit for the courts and social worker.  Most times, this was the same person who did the transportation, but it does not have to be.

Other ideas

Most of what I shared previously are positions that are paid by the state at some level.  These other areas where you could offer support would be volunteering on your own, but still so valuable and ones that I found helpful when I was offered help.

Babysit – offer to get certified to be a babysitter for a foster family you know.  In our state certain background checks must be met in order to leave a child in someone’s care for any length of time.  It was such a nice break to go out for dinner or a walk ALONE and not have to drag a baby along – this little bit of service is really needed and so appreciated by foster parents.

Meal – make a double portion of a casserole and offer to bring one over for a foster family that you know.  As busy moms we know how much of a treat this is, well – a mom who has one or more mouths to feed will really appreciate it!  This is simple and yet so meaningful.

Tutoring – offer to tutor kids who need extra support.  As children are moved from home to home, it is extremely difficult for them to stay caught up in their school work.  If you have the heart to offer support in this way, I know you would find extreme joy in seeing children eat up the attention you could give them!

PrayerThis one everyone can do!  Even if you do not personally know of a family who is fostering, pray in general for children who are in the foster care system and those families who are caring for them.  I would be lying if I said the journey is easy – it is not.  It is hard, it plain really stinks at times. I get exhausted, crabby and have to apologize and ask forgiveness all the time.

As I shared with the mom who came to pick up the little bundle of sweetness yesterday, {we were both older moms, 46 who had grown kids, but yet here we are starting over in this parenting journey……what were we thinking???} even though I may not be the youngest most energetic mom, or the funnest and I will look pretty darn grey on top when my 3 year old graduates from high school, I know God is working in me each day, molding me to who he desires me to become.  It wouldn’t be happening any other way.  This may not have been my plan, but it is HIS plan and being obedient feels so great and much better than struggling with feelings on not being in HIS will.

I am not the best mom and I know it, but to my kids they think I am – and that’s all that matters!

I can tell you, if you choose to serve children, they will think you are pretty darn great too!

If you happen to live in Washington State, here is the link for more information on licensing.  In Washington State, we had to option to get licensed through a private agency, which helped us navigate through the process and helps with our placements.  This is not required and others just get licensed directly through the state.

What resonated in your heart today?